So here we go…

To reflect 2010 has been a odd year. I am officially 10 years removed from high school so therefore I’m old. I finished grad school on schedule and bought an office within the same amount of time so therefore I am young. Perspective is a strange beast.

So Steve what have you learned this year?

-I learned that what you say means nothing. It is what you do that counts. (cliches are annoying… yet usually true)

- I learned to not to burn bridges. People make mistakes and holding grudges doesn’t solve anything.

- I learned at least for myself results do not matter. It is about always putting your best foot forward. It is about trying your best. Success and failure is not about wins or losses but character and effort.

What I’m trying to focus on in the upcoming year is patience. I am always in a constant state of needing to do something. To cross things off my checklist. To achieve something. For better or worse ambition is something I do not lack. Keeping things simple and  waiting for things to happen is sometimes the best course of action. Sometimes doing nothing is better than doing something. I am going to let the game come to me so to speak instead of forcing the action.

Additionally whenever I deal with choices surrounded by shades of grey I will TRY to do the right thing instead of the easy thing. Which in the short term might make me crazy guy talking to my dog on most nights but in the big picture I hope will pay dividends.

Those are the two things I’m going to work on in the future. Wish me luck.

And in closing here’s a quote that I enjoyed. Simple yet powerful.

“To travel is hopefully better than to arrive”

Now in reality I think that I might need god to smack me in the head with a 2 x 4 to figure out he is talking to me. My superior logic just gets in the way or maybe im just too practical or something of the sort.

Why am i saying all this?

B/c 2 secs ago after taking a shower i went to put on my Axe STICK deodorant/anti-perspirant (good stuff) under my extra sweaty right arm pit…. Mind you i used the same deodorant this morning and closed the cap. Can you guess what happened? No 100 bikini chicks didn’t appear out of nowhere to rub me down. ( now that would be an omen and probably the highlight of my 2.5 months here)

What happened was a butterfly flew from under the deodorant cap.

I’m like are you serious? This is really not happening.

It proceeds to fly around the bathroom while i’m half naked without my contacts on. Then it lands on my hand… It’s close enough so my near sighted ass can see clearly and i can tell two things. It is a butterfly (not a moth) and it is absolutely positively beautiful. Keep in mind that i live in the middle of the desert and two forms of natural wild life i see are hungry reservation dogs (res dawgs) and rattle snakes and oh a scorpion snuck into the hospital yesterday too. I haven’t seen anything like this before and now its on my hand. But it didn’t stay on my hand for very long. It goes to fly around the bathroom again. It finds a closed window and flies full throttle towards it and collapses into my toilet. Slam dunk. No kidding. I can’t lie i comtemplated on flushing it down or saving it’s life. I choose the latter. I stuck my hand in the toilet (yucK) and got the little guy/gal. I gave it a few shakes to get the water out and i opened the window and let it fly away. I watched it go and then I left the window open a little bit just in case it wanted to come back.

Now what the heck does this mean? I am not nearly as good of a guesser as I once thought i was. I have no idea. But if i had to guess I would probably fathom a couple of ideas. But heck the little guy might just have the same taste in antiperspirant? Who knows?

Is this an omen?

I dont know but honestly has anything like this come close to happening to you?

But to the big guy upstairs I think its easier to spell things out for me. Seriously, like jumbotron type letters… just in case i dont have my contacts on.